I originally shared this excerpt of Following Moira, in August 2013, but I thought I'd share it again, today, with some added commentary.
Back when this was written, and the cover was created, it was around 2007-2008 - before selfies, online editors, and anti-social media; I thought it was really progressive; artistic; and a commentary on our times, as well as illustrating the stories of my Heart: I had turned the camera on myself, in the styles of Cindy Sherman and Andrea Grant, and I was both the subject and the creator. I'd even sewn the dress, myself.
The internet changed everything; everyone could be a writer.
I decided to publish it with my birthname, because the story is about the transformation of who I was, to who I was becoming, through the fires of Kundalini.
It was after that initiation, that I became known online as Mardi Shakti; Daughter of the Cosmos; Mistress of the Universe. lol
The Alchemical Marriage had taken place within my body, and the fire of the eternal soul had consumed the temporary human personality I was born into. A radiant soul, was I.
It's all in the book, but Alchemical Marriage is really not just "theory", nor something to be understood intellectually.
How can one describe being struck by lightning on the inside, until your person falls off and turns to ash while you giggle, laugh, and cry - all at once?!
I decided to make my book free, because Kundalini is TOO IMPORTANT. No one warned me it was possible! So I had to share my story, and I am so glad I did.
I have made some brilliant, soulful friends over the years, from all over the world, who have been so gracious and grateful for the sharing of my story, as they go through their own awakenings and phenomenal spiritual experiences.
I learned that the knowledge of Kundalini, and the Goddess, had been removed from history, and it was up to us to bring her back! I am so fortunate to have encountered so many Living Goddesses, since; they gave me context in a world where i had none.
I also kept the book as raw, amateur, living, and unedited as possible, because, again, it was a commentary on our times: everyone could be a writer, and raw stories were what the world was hungry for. From fanzines to ebooks, it's still kind of grunge to be unpolished, and creative.
And, since it was written during my Kundalini Awakening, I really wanted to share that transmission, as purely as possible.
I have always been know for being multi-dimensional, so over the years it spread around the world, I was surprised that my book-cover was seen by some as having only one-dimension...!
It was a book about my Heart.
It was commentary on my objectification just by merely living; I was more than just what people saw when they looked at me.
But at the same time, I am embodied in this form. Inside and Outside: Unified.
To further emphasise my increasing objection to objectification, I ended up writing this article for Elephant Journal, as an educational gift for society.
Insides and Outsides.
This was my original accompanying art-piece to the article. The editor completely muted my message with her art-choice, but that's ok; she also suggested I amend my piece to write it in the first-person. I'd originally written it from the dissociated 3rd person pov. I was getting pissed off with guys trying to form some kind of cyber-sexual relationship, when, online, I'm basically a robot - sexless. Sex is in my body.
Excerpt From Following Moira: SUNSET
I even suffer from a slight anger towards orange. I get angry at carrots for being so…orange.
I can only really tolerate it in a very particular shade. One in the triad of my favourite colours – reminiscent of a scene in Maui; where I have never been.
This composition is hot pink, sunset orange, and ultra violet.
I also have other triads of favourite combinations. There is a fluttery, alive, star-gold with radiant turquoise, and rose pink…
And a velvet red, turquoise, and gold.
I think I like turquoise because it seems to be a beautiful blue with a radiant heart of gold. And speaking of turquoise, Let's play a game!
(As I’m sure you can imagine, I actually write a small descriptive paragraph about it: as the more work you put in, the heartier the result. But at your leisure…)
1. What is you favourite colour? Now describe it in two words.
2. What is your favourite animal? Describe it in two.
3. What is your favourite body of water? i.e.: bath, river, lake, teeth brushing water… two words.
4. Imagine you are naked in a white room with no windows, no doors; no way in or out. Describe in two words how you feel.
It’s funner if you do it with others (as always)!
My answers are always changing, and I won’t give you the thesis, but often it’s:
1. turquoise (radiant, electric) or velvet red (warm, alive)
2. flamingo, peacock (both are exotic masterpieces) or tiger (powerful, majestic)
3. bath/shower/waterfall (weightless, warm / hot, unrelenting and / Gravity – there’s this whole thing with the higher river falling into and merging with the one below. The whole process of unification)
I’ll give you the results later. Chances are if they were right here you would read them before playing. No fun.
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